2006.
Hallo to all!
2006 came and went. No matter how much people always say that they wish that 2007 will be a better year than the previous, I highly doubt that the dawn of the new year would spring better surprises on me, light up the jubilance in me or dream up hauntingly beautiful memories for me to take away forever.
Like I mentioned in one of my previous blog entries, the fall of 2006 will be the stretch in my twenty-one years of existence that I had truly been happy. Maybe I am delirious. And who says it is a bad thing to be? I really wish that I can seal my memories of 2006 in a time capsule so that I can revisit those moments whenever and wherever I want.
My memories of 2006 has not just been about boisterous travels around Europe. There are also those jittery periods of uncertainty in dealing with forces of fear. Fear in being alone and losing people that you love and care about. And then there are those buckets of tears that I shed. The period when I have never ever felt more alone and abandoned than ever. Discovering that there are still genuinely good people around in this world. Forging brand new friendships with people so diverse from you and at the same time, intensifying relationships with people who really matter to me in this world.
2007 is here again. I am at the age where I have stopped believing in New Year's resolutions. In fact, I am such a cynic about everything in this world that whatever promises or words that people say to me are nothing more than just cotton candy fluff.
This will be my final year in SMU. As much as I dread the prospect of losing my freedom and enslaving myself to the prospect of career, I have to start focusing on these things.
I fear I will lose myself. I fear that I will go back to the mundane and purposeless life that I once had. And I know that it is easy to lose myself in it.
But if I ever do, I hope that I will look back at the year of 2006 and once again, remember all those lessons that I learnt. In love, life and the future.
For now, I shall remember.
2006 came and went. No matter how much people always say that they wish that 2007 will be a better year than the previous, I highly doubt that the dawn of the new year would spring better surprises on me, light up the jubilance in me or dream up hauntingly beautiful memories for me to take away forever.
Like I mentioned in one of my previous blog entries, the fall of 2006 will be the stretch in my twenty-one years of existence that I had truly been happy. Maybe I am delirious. And who says it is a bad thing to be? I really wish that I can seal my memories of 2006 in a time capsule so that I can revisit those moments whenever and wherever I want.
My memories of 2006 has not just been about boisterous travels around Europe. There are also those jittery periods of uncertainty in dealing with forces of fear. Fear in being alone and losing people that you love and care about. And then there are those buckets of tears that I shed. The period when I have never ever felt more alone and abandoned than ever. Discovering that there are still genuinely good people around in this world. Forging brand new friendships with people so diverse from you and at the same time, intensifying relationships with people who really matter to me in this world.
2007 is here again. I am at the age where I have stopped believing in New Year's resolutions. In fact, I am such a cynic about everything in this world that whatever promises or words that people say to me are nothing more than just cotton candy fluff.
This will be my final year in SMU. As much as I dread the prospect of losing my freedom and enslaving myself to the prospect of career, I have to start focusing on these things.
I fear I will lose myself. I fear that I will go back to the mundane and purposeless life that I once had. And I know that it is easy to lose myself in it.
But if I ever do, I hope that I will look back at the year of 2006 and once again, remember all those lessons that I learnt. In love, life and the future.
For now, I shall remember.
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